You doing okay?Yeah. It’s just, um, knowing all the sacrifices that Kerry made to look after her dad, you know, got me thinking about how I handled things when my mom needed help. I mean, Kerry kept her at home because… because he said that that’s where all the memories were, even though moving him to a facility just would’ve been easier. And that’s exactly what I did. And part of me has just always wondered if that decision hastened her decline. What choice did you have? I could’ve done things differently, you know? I had this career at MI6 I that I put on hold and that I was desperate to get back to. At the time I told myself that putting her care in the hands of other was the best thing for her, but now I just can’t help but think that was the best thing for me.You know you can’t compare yourself to Kerry or anyone else’s situation. You were there for your mom. And I have no doubt that you did the best you could under very difficult circumstances.
Thomas, listen, I’m frightened. That’s why I got so angry. I’m just… I’m really scared to losing you. With Richard, believe it or not, I was the careless one. I never thought that anyone could hurt us. And then one day somebody did. And I spent years haunted, wondering what could have happened if I taken a few more precautions to keep us safe. And then when you and I found out that it was my mentor who killed him, I blame myself for not seeing it sooner. And even though I know Richard’s death wasn’t my fault, it’s just, to this day, I still feel… Like you have blood on your hands. How’d you know? Because I felt the same way, with Nuzo and Greene. I don’t know. I think it’s… it’s part of grieving. I think when you lose someone, the guilt of surviving can sometimes feel like it’s all you have left, and it’s hard to let that go. Yeah.
